One day in my thirties while in a distressed state of mind, I closed my eyes and saw a young girl. She was around 10 years old and she was mad as hell. Her fists were clenched and her eyes were glaring as she stood aggressively in front of me.
I had seen her before, but she usually looked lifeless, lost, & detached. Dead-like. I knew on some level that she was me when I was younger. I thought, why is she showing up now? This is so odd, and am I going insane?
I talked about her ( Little Donna), with my therapist and my therapist told me not to worry, I was quite sane. She said it sounded as though I was beginning to do Inner Child Work (ICW). That was 19 years ago.
Since that day I met many split off parts of my child-self and slowly gained their trust, allowed them to express themselves in an uncensored manner, and nurtured them as I have loved and cherished my own children. It's been a long journey but what a remarkable one!
Now my younger parts stand as one with my adult self in a healthy alliance where we support each part of myself.
That enraged little girl I saw in my mind had a well of pain that went into the depths of my soul. As she experienced devastated states, my adult self patiently listened, gently held her when she wanted to be held, and loved her no matter what. No matter how ugly, scary, or profoundly depressed she got, I loved her anyway. Isn't that what she deserves? Isn't that what we all deserve?
I know she doesn't deserve my inner critic because she has walked through hell and needs healing love. I deeply love all my parts, and it has taken 23 years of relentless baby steps to get here.
I will hold hope for you to love yourself, no matter what.
Love & Healing Blessings,
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